*raising hands in the air*
Okay. I’m guilty. Awfully, woefully so!
The one thing that I swore NOT to do in the new year, is exactly what I’m guilty of.
(Yeah, the same big ‘P’ that ruined the year 2011 for me).
Though I try not to show it, I’m a lazy bone to the core. If something can be put off for now, I’ll put it off. If something isn’t die-hard urgent, I won’t do it. If the sword aint dangling over my head, I don’t give two-hoots. ’nuff said. I guess you get the picture.
I had planned to get the twin’s uniforms altered because they’d grown an inch over the year.Two weeks of vacations went by, I didn’t get it done. School started today and my kids went there with their dungarees riding way up their ankles 😦 . Same’s the case with their holiday homework *hanging head in shame* 😦 .
I haven’t visited the gym for the last two months.
I haven’t completed my course at the driving school.
I haven’t returned the library book in over a month!!
I didn’t do a New Year’s post (Though I had it all planned in my head!!) .
My list of stuff-not-done far exceeds my list of stuff-I-have-to-do 😦
For a long time there, I gave the excuse of GMIL’s ailment. But then, I’ve realized lately that I myself am not doing anything for the old lady. We have maids to look after her day and night. I have a nanny to tend to the kids during the day. There’s a cook who helps out in the evenings and another who does the clothes and dishes.
Then what exactly am I doing that takes up all my time??
Apart from work in office (which takes up more time than normal), I cant think of anything else that I’m busy with. Which is a shame really, because I kind of prided myself on my ability to multitask. Alas, for the last few weeks, I have a shameful record. I do less and crib more. I get more irritated with the twins than I’d be willing to admit 😦 . It came to a point when the BF started giving me a wide berth !
Of all my supposed ‘resolutions’ , I think the ONE thing I must focus on is to JUST.STOP.WHINING!!! God knows how much I’m reveling in this attitude, as if the entire burden of the universe lies on my not-so-frail-shoulders!! Ours is not the only house with an invalid and kids. I’m not the sole working woman on this planet. There are others who have it much worse! And yet, I make excuses for myself and my habit of putting things off!!
There was a time when I averaged around 2-3 posts a day! And now, its the third day of the new year and I’m yet to publish anything!
So now that I’m done with the rant, *raising my glass high* I hereby propose that this year, I’ll do my best to do things on time. To value things dearest to me and to stop cribbing. To love more and expect less. To be there for people who need me (whom I’ve shamelessly ignored recently. Apologies BFS 😦 ) and not be afraid to turn to friends when in need. To be more cheerful and less whiny. To be more productive at work and at home. To learn to stand up for myself and demand my due. To spend as much time with the kids as possible. Ditto BF. To call home more often and to never give the ‘because-I’m-busy-at-work’ excuse to parents.
To savor each moment of this year as it comes.
And to blog more. Of course 😀
On that note, belated though it is, I wish you all a VERY fulfilling 2012.
Happy New Year Folks 🙂